What I like

       I like writing.
Because when I write,I let everything from inside to flow outside. It helps me to ease everything.

       I like watching documentary about travelling.
Because it let me know about places I could never go. (maybe) . It shows the beauty of the world that we could never see. Beautiful things that is not around us. Beautiful places that we could only see it by our own eyes,even it is only in the tv.

      I like watching movies.
Because it let you be in somebody else's life.Experience things from somebody else's life. Be it sad,happy,horror or anything. It just let you be someone else , for a while.

      I like taking pictures.
Because it is the only way to stop the time.So,you can go back to certain moment.

      I like travelling.
Because it is the only way I could see the beautiful part in the world. Places you never thought exist.Different places from where you usually stay.Different view.Different people.Different side of the world.

      I like being in the sea.
Because it is a different world down there. With beautiful creatures.

      I like reading novels.
Because , same reason why I like watching movies.

     I like any outdoor activities.
Because sometimes it let you feel the adrenaline rush in your body,which you do not feel everyday. I would like to try,bungee jumping,skydiving,mountain climbing,backpacking. Maybe,one day in the future.
  
      Lastly,

     I like money too.
Because who doesnt?  lol.

 Bye.

Atok,I miss you..

  Hi. How's life everyone?
Mine is good. Except that i miss arwah atok so much. I went back hometown last weekend. And now its the fruits season. Usually he's the one who will look for fruits for us. But this time my family and i went back to the old and empty house. Its very sad, yknow. Its like you still can see him around,with his kain pelikat and towel around his neck looking for durians.I miss him,so much. I miss his laugh , i miss doing our "secret" handshake. I miss everything about him. it breaks my heart everytime I look at the house. I will never forget you atok. I know he's fine there,somewhere far from everyone. Through his life,he was a very nice man. I hope to see you again one day atok. Wherever you are, I really want to meet you again. I just wanna hug you and tell you i miss you. haish. Thinking about him never fail to make me cry. -Al Fatihah-

siapa

nak tau sangat,siapa je yang baca blog ni

ES PEE YEM!

                                                         WOOOHOOOOOO~


                  Ok , spm will start in a few more hours! 

       Where did all the time go dude? Seriously. All 11 years of school has finally coming to its end. Remember the first day of your school in Standard 1? I still remember mine. I cried during the recess time because Mama and Ayah were not there with me. Man,what do you expect? , I never spent money on my own,never go anywhere without my parents(except in kindergarden but thats okay) how do you think i will survive on my own ON THE FIRST DAY OF SCHOOL? okay,thats a little dramatic, but yeah mom's friend saw me crying and saved me from further mental destruction. But, i did it! Although i cried but i did it. And that was on my first day of school.

   Six years has passed, and BOOM! My first big exam which is UPSR. I did it too,with flying colours. Managed to get all A's. And that was the main point where everyone started to put high expectation on me FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE. Families and relatives were like 
"Angah kan pandai takde hal lah kan" 
"Angah kan pandai, jadi lah doktor" 
"Angah kan pandai boleh punya study oversea"
"Mama tau anak anak mama ni pandai" 
"Spm 9A tau"
 and bla..blaaaa.. And all of that REALLY burden me until now. Sometimes i just thought maybe i could just get bad results from the beginning so everyone wouldnt keep on pressuring me. But thats okay. I get used too it now ha..ha..ha. Thinking of it again,all i see is that Mama and Ayah loves me so much. They want me to do well in exam so they say those words that could increase my spirit although that..does..not..work....ha..ha.. 

     Next,my PMR exam. I sat for it 2 years ago.I got 7as 1b which is pretty sad. I still feel guilty for it until now. Sorry mama and ayah. Doesnt meant to let you guys down,im not clever enough :(  . Okay. However, i love Mama and Ayah so much for not letting me down. I mean mama and ayah were there everytime i need them. They gave me everything i need.If people ask me why do my results in exam is always bad,i will never could find a reason that come from them. 
I LOVE YOU MAMA AYAH!. 

  Okay,so next big exam will start tomorrow. I dont know why am I not nervous. I am more to excited not because im 100% ready but maybe because i can't wait to stop studying(for a while).
   The thing is,look how time passes.Everytime you fell,you get up and continue walking. Even if its hard,even if it seems impossible, time will not stay and it will still bring you forward.
 Thinking of the hard times i've been through  makes me want to weep. Look at me,im almost done with school baby!

    Dear Ayah and Mama , terima kasih untuk segalanya. Kalau mama dengan ayah suruh bayar budi baik mama ayah sampai mati pun angah berhutang le nampaknya (sorry buat lawak sikit). Ehem. Angah sayang sangat dekat mama ayah. If there is one thing that i could ask for, it will be to see both of you happy ever after. Eish rasa nak nangis pulak. Angah harap angah buat mama ayah bangga ada angah. ok.
    
Dear kakak and adik,eish pasal korang ni tak tau nak cakap apa. Rasa nak cepuk je sorang-sorang.(gurau je). Yang pastinya angah sayang gila lah kat korang walau korang selalu annoying.So grateful to have both of you. Ok bye.

 Dear best friend.(Athirah,Fatihah,Adilah,Anis,Farahiya).
Thanks jugak untuk segalanya. walaupun 2 dr korang dah takde dengan aku. haha. semoga spm kita semuanya berjaya. InshaAllah.amin.

 Dear self,goodluck untuk spm.I know you can do it bebeh! *pats own back*

p/s: what a long post. sekati lah. Nak baca, baca. taknak? bla la pe lagi!miahaha. bye
           
 

Impian

   

   Look at myself,updating blog when spm is in 12 days. Thinking about spm just gives me goosebumps. I want to do well in spm. Anyway, Im not aiming for straight As because I know my capability.I know how much i can do,but i have a very strong faith in myself that atleast the result will not be so much devastating. But,there is still time.Nothing is impossible unless you stop trying.So,let's see. hehe

   So my point of updating this super ugly blog today is because I finally figured out what I want to do with my life.As a kid,I used to have lots of ambition. I remember how much I want to be a pilot in airforce but then the next few months I wanted to be doctor and in another few weeks I might want to be a dentist or pharmacist or lawyer(yknow, all those career that parents usually encourages you to pursue),so my  ambition was always constantly changing,but i think its normal.Today as a matured 17 years old girl(ceewah!) , I think I know what I love. You can't buy skills. You have to know what you love and go for it. 

   Since few years ago,I started to developed a feeling toward the seas. I know I love the seas because everytime Ayah bring us to any island I would be so happy especially when there was any activity in the water. This feelings get stronger when I was snorkelling in Pulau Redang. Seeing all those beautiful creatures makes me want to know them more and learn about them. so what im trying to say now is that I want to further my studies in anything to do with them so that one day I get to work with them. I did some research about this course that I want to take,and yes,its exactly meant for me(I hope). 

Based on my research(cewah!research konon haha),in this country,this course is not available for diploma. so the only way to get there is through matriculation or diploma in science,then you can take a bachelor degree in that course. But if you wanted to take this straight,you need to get super awesome result so you can straight go to oversea after spm and do your A-level there. If you still want to go to oversea but you result is bad, then you need to have a shitloads of $$$$$$.Anyway,whoever you are,if you're reading this,please pray for my success,pray that everything will get in my way the way i want it to be. InsyaAllah InsyaAllah !!! ..

                                                               (courtesy of google)

p/s: I hope that one day in the future I will read again this post and be like "omg this girl achieved it all" haha ok bye nerds

Hell lo

 hai everyone.

so its 21st april today. look at how fast time flies!!! spm in less than 200 days.

yet,i am still the same -,-. so much things to be done before spm,still so many chapters 

that is still uncovered. help me. and...mid year exam is on 30th of april until 17th oh may. thats really gonna be a long and hard weeks. tomorrow gonna a perform a sketch with my classmates.wuu nervous!! emm,what else...... oh ya this coming 5th of may is the voting day. hidup bn. muahaha. ok thats all. bye

 
   p/s: i cant update this blog often because of my super high capacity of laziness
   p/s: today is my babyboy birthday! ;)
   p/s:please pray for my coming exam,trial spm and spm. i really really really want that straight as.


 ok bye,for real :p