March 23, 2018

 HI!

As I wrote in the last post, I am gonna post the stuffs I wrote when I thought I lost this blog for good. this one were written in 2018. Of course since it was written and kept personal, I do wrote stuffs that I should never share. But whatever else in there, i'll post it here.

Here it goes!

March 23, 2018

Halloooo, so today I have a sad news. I officially lost my blog. I forgot my email and its password for the blog. Goddddddd I am heartbroken I really want it back.

Okay so now while I am here im just gonna update on my life.  I have just finished week 3 in my third semester. Its been good so far. Lecturers are great. All new subjects are exciting.

On the first week of the semester, a counseling team came to our fac and we, not having anything to do just went there to see if there is anything we can do. So we registered. We basically just talked that day and made an appointment with the counselor to do a numerology test the next week. The test said that I am gifted,creative andddddd emotional. Im not sure about the first two, but yeah I am indeed sure I am emotional.

I’ve been training myself to be more sabar nowadays. Yeah little by little, it would surely works.

Buttttt, it did not stop there, we went again to him last week for another personality test, and made an appointment again with him for next week. I totally feel like a bad student who goes for counseling every week. HAHA! But im just hoping that this appointment with the counselor would give the best result to myself. For me to be a better person. 

Okay that’s all for now. Lets just pray I would dream about my forgotten email and password tonight so I can get my blog back 😢

p/s: little did i know almost 3 years later I am back again writing on this blog. hihi

I'M BACK

IM SO EXCITED
OMG
FINALLY

It feels surreal to be writing in this blog again. I gave up long time ago trying to recover the password and email I used. But today, for some reason, I was able to log in again 😭

UPDATE:

So it has been 3 years since my last update. I was in the first semester of law school back then. Guess what? Im in my final semester now!!! From time to time I do come back to read this blog. I used to be so sure of what to do in my life. Until it took an unexpected turn 3 years ago. Law school man. Who would have thought. I used to be so not confident of myself too back then. Was so scared if I would not be able to finish the law degree. Well, dear my old self, you can do anything if you put your mind to it. This will be my mantra now. No more being insecure, no more belittling myself! 

Currently I am in my third week of the final semester. Few more months to officially finish law school. Will start to look for a place for my chambering after this. Fuh, excited for the new phase!

I have so many other things to update as well, as for now, this will be it. I have another class in 5 mins! 😁

p/s: im thinking to post the stuffs I wrote in  between 2017-2018 here. I did write sometimes but I just saved it in my PC. It is all written few years ago. I have stop writing for some time actually. Will find time to write again.

Since then, bye!

HELLO 2017

Hello again my dearest blog. I truly miss writing in here so here I am today. Halfway past 2017 and im backkk. hehehehe.

So a little update on my life - Im currently doing LLB and my final exam starts next week. Past few months was quite hard for me. I had to adjust everything to suit with all the new things im learning. I have to look for new friends, study new things at a new environment. Even until now, im still adjusting.

Its already very near to the end of my first semester, but sometimes I still cant believe myself right now. I never thought of studying law before. All i ever thought of is me studying anything related to science, it happened too fast like suddenly I applied for the degree and then suddenly I got an offer for the interview and then again suddenly I was accepted. But Alhamdullilah, not even once i have ever regretted my decision, or at least, not yet. heheh. It's hard, I admit, but there is nothing worth it in this life comes easy. Im just praying I will get through this 4 years. Harap-harap tak kena buang lah.
So far, degree is all good. Met good friends, good roomates. I had fun throughout the semester. Yeay!

Oh btw! It's 4th Syawal today! Having final exam after raya really kill the fun maynnn.

I think that's all kot! I will post again soon. Bye!

Bye 2016!

Hello!

It has been more than 2 months since my holiday started, and I am still unemployed, still lazing around at home that im becoming so fat now.

Um, i think maybe this will be the last post for 2016. It has been indeed a great year for me, ofcourse there were tough times but its all okay now. In 2016 i have succesfully completed my diploma, and will further my degree next year maybe in march (if im accepted in the course i applied) lol.

Other than that, I also went to an interview for my degree last week for a course that i never thought i will ever apply. There were few post before this that I mentioned on how much I want to get into degree in  marine science/marine bio but its getting farther away from me. Its very...out of reach. Maybe its not for me lah kot, I dont know. But for this course im applying for degree its even harder for me to be accepted and if im actually accepted, i dont even know if I could handle it well. haha.

Right now, im totally only going with the flow, we'll see what happen next year. hope its all good things.

Thank you 2016! You have been great,im excitedly welcoming 2017 now. huhu
Bye for now! I'll update again....next year! hiks.

Appreciation post for ANALIS

Hello everyone!

 As stated in the tittle,this post is gonna be about my girls in which we call ourselves as the ANALIS (combination of our name hehehe).

Those girls are Ain,Nazira,Amira,Liena and Izzati! Throughout my final year,all of these girls were with me. Final year project, ENT project and all kind of other assignments was done together. There were nights we sleep at 4 a.m. for the sake of the project, there were days we were so tired, but WE made through it, TOGETHER.

I am so thankful for them.
Thank you for the laughs,
Thank you for the jokes,
Thank you for the fun unexpected trip we always went for,
Thank you for the encouraging words you girls gave me when I am feeling down,

Thank you girls,for everything.

I look forward to our next trip! Hope it goes as planned. hehe.
I will always pray for you girls success and well being.
Till we meet again <3

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Worries

Recently,I always feel like I have so many things to worry about,when it is actually almost nothing. I tend to overthink, that is my problem. Currently , the worst issue that concerns me is my pimples problem. (See,told ya its not actually a big prob) Its like haunting me 24/7. Sometimes I can't sleep thinking about how to cure this. I mean like its almost Raya!! How do I face people with this face? NOOOOO. But,I will not give up. Still trying. Come back,my usual skin, i miss you :(

The next thing,is my future.(Not sure how this can come second when it is actually more important.heheh) . In few more days,I will go back to Tapah for my last semester in diploma. Mannnn,time sure flies. Im so grateful for my last semester result despite it being so hard,am grateful also for my muet despite kene pi Kuala Kangsar semata nak ambik muet! And I am hoping the best for the next semester. Now the main issue is, after diploma what do i do???? What to take for degree???? I don't even knowww,thats what make it hard for me. Im just so scared...sometimes.. to think about what the future holds for me. Whatever it is, I hope it is a good one!

ok now allow me to go back to my real life and continue convincing myself that I look beautiful even with the pimples,and also telling myself I will get a course that is good for me for my degree. That will make myself feels better,atleast for now! heheh.

Bye.

Miserably missing the girls.

Hi.
Today, it hits again. The randomly i-miss-my-girls-so-bad-im-gonna-cry kind of sickness. I can't even remember the last time I met Adilah and Farahiya. Fatihah okla ada jumpa tapi the last time i can sit down and just talk to her about everything...man its been so long! :(  I really really really miss them. Teringat kenangan zaman sekolah menengah dulu. Tingkatan 2,tingkatan 3 tulah zaman kegemilang fourawesome. Tingkatan 4 Adilah masuk MRSM,terpisah kelas pula dengan Farahiya&Fatihah. Habis SPM nak duduk sekali borak borak lagilah,seems impossible. Sekarang ni,cuti masing masing semua dah lain-lain. Bila semua ada di Klang pun susah nak berjumpa. haha. Tapi awak semua,ketahuilah,walaupun jarang contact,aku selalu stalk korang punya instagram,twitter dengan blog! Sebab rindu. hehe. Kadang-kadang scroll balik gambar-gambar kita masa budak hingusan lagi,lepastu gelak sensorang. Haha. Sekarang semua lawa-lawa. Hebat-hebat belaka.

Akhir kata, Girls,wherever you are stay safe,and dont forget me.Haha.
InsyaAllah,panjang umur,kita jumpa lagi. Love you girls,always!

Nah! lanje satu gambar waktu masih mentah. hahahaha!

In state of confusion. LOL

   Hai! Today I realized that this year,I failed in my mission to update this blog often,again.In fact,I have even lesser updates to be compared to last year. Well that shows how busy I am this year. haha. Last semester,was indeed the toughest since I ever started my diploma. Now that the finals end,it feels awkward to be lazing around all day. Whatever it is,I am hoping for good results.

   Next semester I am gonna be in my final year,and for the last two semesters I chose 'Laluan Biologikal' instead of Physics. Myself and Physics will never ever get along,LIKE EVERRRR. haha, I hope last sem physics is really gonna be the last physics I will ever take in my life. haha. And by choosing bio.this brings me closer to my ambition which I mentioned so many times in my previous previous posts. However, the closer it comes to the end of my diploma, it feels like im even farther away from it. My parents also is very eager in convincing me to take another course but the problem is I don't even know what else I want,I don't have anything else i really wanna go for so this really put a huge pressure on me sometimes. I even have a thought of to just go with the flow but that's really not me. lol. Well,to put it simply,if anything prevents me from taking that course, maybe I'll just take degree in bio or something , further in master and be a lecturer. Wow,that sounds like a good plan hehehe.

   I hope before I end my diploma I find something that steal my heart ecewah, Oklah,kalau tak something, someone pun okay. EH? haha.

  And Im also looking forward for next semester since its gonna be my first sem living out of college. Yeah we rent a house! Makes me feel like a real adult. hahaha

Thats all for this post! Oh yeah, I hope I can still update more b4 this year ends,atleast more than last year. haha. Bye!

19

19 years ago,today,Mama fought her life for me.
Being alive and well all this while,I have many people to be thankful for. My family in example. I am lucky enough to be born in this family. Supportive enough and is always there whenever I need them. I wouldn't be where I am today without them,though until today I may not be giving enough,everyday I will keep on trying to be the best atleast for Mama and Ayah. Alhamdullilah for this life. And as I grow older every year. I want to be better,change in any way for good. InsyaAllah ;)

Here's a selfie! heheh.

Late night thoughts!

Hai!

It's been a really really long time since my last post. I really want to update often but the time just won't let me. Right now its 12:17 a.m. and I am on my bed, here in Tapah.

Currently, we are in the middle of Ramadhan. Yes! its 15th of ramadhan and its just one week away from my raya break to start. Definitely can't wait for that hehe.

As for my studies,Alhamdullilah I am now in the third semester. Last semester results was satisfying yeay! And for this semester I am really hoping to maintain. InsyaAllah,may Allah ease.

Lately, I have been hearing/reading a lot from so many people how easy it is living as a university student.
Well, firstly I heard it from my Bio lecturer, Miss Fathiah. She said that if she could,she would really want to go back being a student. The only responsible that students have is to study,and to excel. You really have nothing else to worry about. And come to think of it, I think its true. Because the biggest problem that I maybe need to face is only coming from the study itself or from the lecturers(lecturer yang ajar tak faham) or the problem to fight my own laziness. haha.

And after listening to all of the adults' sight, i realize how lucky I am to be where I am now. Eventhough, I myself will go through that phase one day , atleast for now I want to have the best time of my life so that when I look back, I will have no regrets.

I am grateful that I am here, I am grateful for my family, I am grateful for my friends. I believe Allah is the best planner,and whatever the future holds for me, I am looking forward to it. But for now, lets just live happily,without worrying about something that is not yet to happen. I hope I will get through this uni phase and if there is any hardship along the way, I hope I am strong enough.

To my friends and to myself, may all of us achieve our goals. Amin!

Later!

I am gonna update this blog as soon as I have any free time, as soon as possible! I miss writinggggg . Till then,bye!

Be yourself,be true.

Hai,Assalamualaikum!

  Lately I have learnt a new thing. That a nice person on the outside,can actually be a beast inside. Just because that person laughs with you,and were always there for you,that does not guarantee that person loves you. Its weird after how much time was spent together,how could you come out with such reasons to tear us apart? But its okay now. Its actually making me more cautious in choosing friends and not to trust people easily in the future. So,my advice is,your friends might be laughing with you right now,but behind you she might be bad-mouthing you,so be careful. Its weird how people like this even exist. Tak penat ke go and faking around people? Just stop. Stop faking around,and be true.

Thanks,2014

Hai,Assalamualaikum!

I hope it is still not too late to say goodbye to 2014. It has been a wonderful year for me. A rollercoaster ride kind of a year. heheh.

Before 2014,like in 2013 and all the years before that I realized that I have been living in the same phase of life. I go to school,I come back home,I take examinations and thats it. That's all. In 2014,after I finished my SPM , I knew that life is not all about that,about you getting good results in exams which means you are clever and you getting bad results in exam you are stupid,no it's not all about that. There's more.

Life is about how you get up after you fell,how you build yourself up again after crashing no matter how many times,about how you try not to repeat the same mistakes even after you fail again and again. Its about your determination. You pave your own way in life. You make your own decisions.

That is why in 2015,I want to be strong,to change myself,in so many good ways,so that in the future when I look back I won't regret a single thing.Another thing is,I want to stop being lazy. My number 1 problem,lazy. Urgh :(  All this talk just hit me that Im really going old....I never thought all of that would come out of my brain....Sokay la,lets just live this last year of being teens,before i get in 20 series old woman next year with good memories and being less lazy and less time wasting teens. lol. hm.

Soooo,again,2014 is year to be thankful for,Im grateful for every single thing that happened.Like getting bad results in SPM(pedihnya masih terasa),getting a driver's license,dived for the first time,live far away from family the first time,and many many other the first time. heheh.

May I will learn a lot of another new things in 2015,and again being less lazy,and if Im ever lucky enough I might also lose weight. hohohohhohohoohohoho. Aminnn.

Goodbye,muah ciked!

What's Life

Staring at an empty blank wall,
Thinking how to not fall,
But still fell hard afterall,
Because what's life it its boring and dull.

-Syairah,15.4.2014

Hopes.

 Hai,Assalamualaikum dan Salam 1 Malaysia.

InsyaAllah,dalam lebih kurang dua minggu lagi,saya akan mendaftar sebagai seorang pelajar semester 2 di UiTM Tapah,Perak.Cepatnya masa yang berlalu kadang-kala membuatkan saya takut. Takut jika saya akan terus leka sehingga masa yang ada tidak akan pernah cukup.

Azam untuk semester 2 saya mestilah untuk terus belajar bersungguh sungguh. Kalau boleh,nak lebih daripada semester 1. Alhamdullilah,walaupun semester 1 belum dapat dekan lagi,usaha perlu diteruskan. Main-main perlu dikurangkan. Jangan cepat berpuas hati,jangan pulak rasa semuanya sentiasa tidak cukup.

Harapan saya mestilah untuk jumpa kawan-kawan yang ada misi yang sama dengan saya nanti di sana. Dengan cara tu,senanglah kita ada pendorong untuk berjaya walaupun keluarga jauh di mata.Niat untuk belajar pun perlu dibetulkan. Peluang yang diberi,jangan disia-siakan. Usaha dulu,menyesal kemudian. Kalau belum usaha dah tergedik nak menyesal memang tak kemana la ceritanya.(nasihat untuk diri sendiri)

Buat masa ini juga,belum terdetik lagi dalam hati saya untuk tukar cita cita. Walaupun mama dengan ayah dah banyak kali kasi hint suruh buat benda lain. Alasannya? bidang kerja itu tak meluas dalam Malaysia. Bukan mama ayah je cakap macamtu,ramai sebenarnya, tapi bila difikir balik, rezeki kita semua dah ditentukan Allah. Kalau ditakdirkan ada kerja untuk seseorang tu,beribu orang pun lah yang pergi interview mesti tak dapat. Sebab? Sebabnya dah ditentukan Allah rezeki kerja itu untuk dia. Saya juga bukanlah menolak sekeras-kerasnya untuk mencari minat dalam bidang kerja lain. InsyaAllah,jika ditakdirkan saya buat benda lain, minat mendalam pun tak boleh nak lawan takdir.

Sebagai natijahnya, harapan saya ialah saya dapat capai apa yang saya harapkan. Saya harap di masa hadapan saya ialah seorang wanita bekerjaya yang berjaya. Yang dapat berbakti pada keluarga, Yang dapat buat mama ayah happy terutamanya,sebab di akhirnya,redha mama ayah pada saya lah yang paling penting sekali untuk saya berjaya.

Sekian,Assalamualaikum. :)

First sem!

Hello! Assalamualaikum! heheh. Soo,hello again dear blog,so longgg,now here i am again. I've got so many things to update here but yeah..lets take things slowly...hehe!

Now its already been a week since the end of first semester,and ive got mixed feelings about the finals. hehe. Hmm , im glad i survived the first sem well despite its my first time living far from home. Im excited as well for another 4 semesters! So all in all,this 4 months++  have treated me so well. In Pilah, i have met so many people,learn so many new things, and feel so many different feelings. ecewahh. hehe. I am so grateful for everything,Alhamdullilah. I am also very glad to have super cool classmates which is 1L2. It takes so little time for us to get along. They are also so helpful in every way. Blessed to meet them. And I hope to have the same classmates in Tapah.(Will transfer to new campus next sem!)

Okay.

Sooo,next is about my housemates. In a house there is six of us,including me. And... though theres few of us doesnt really get along well with each other(my super weird roomate,lol) , i am happy to get to know them. You know,its here in uni where you can get to know so many type of people. My housemates also is one of the biggest factor i am fine in Pilah, they help me a lot in every way. They act as my private tutor,my bestfriend,and also my mom sometimes. hehehe. Thank you for everything girls,i hope we can meet again some day! heheh.

Okay.

Soooo, last 3 days , it was my birthday,another great birthday,so glad im already home by that time. So glad that i could celebrate it with my family. As a gift,i received a new super cool watch! thank you so much mama ayah! And also a cake of course. Anddd, i never thought this would happen but my big family also prepared a surprise for meee! I never thought that would happen! Seee! im so blessed with such nice people around me,alhamdullilah!

Sooo,during this sem break, i dont have any plan other than to completed my driving license,oh man it is really a big burden to me! aaaaaaa :(

I thinks thats all for this post,will try to update more often! I end this post with few pictures okay! heheh.

                                                         My beloved faculty. Heheh

                                                             My beloved classmates

     Hi everybodeyh. Soo its been almost 3 months im here in UiTM Kuala Pilah. Yea yeah I know its been ages since the last time i update this baby.I've been so busy that this blog is just left like this. So yeah as i mentioned earlier i am now in UiTM Kuala Pilah doing Diploma in Science for 5 semesters. Alhamdullilah , Allah have given me another opportunity for me to further my study despite a devastating SPM results.Being here, I wanna do the best InsyaAllah.So whoever reading this,pray for me ok. hihi.
 
   Sooo do you guys remember in previous post i updated about what i wanna work as in the future? And the path i should go for in order to achieve what I want? Yes,I think i am in the right way now. After doing dip in science i can go for degree in marine science. But again, all that is still in my calculations.Being a marine biologist is all i have in my mind in the moment,but in the future,I dont know because in the end,we make plans but Allah is the best planner.

   Emm about my studies here,most of the subjects are just repeating what i've learnt in spm but its way harder.hahaha.Went through few quizzes and tests and it was JUST okay. lol. emmm. Idk why but I love biology wayyyyy more now. I think its really fun lol and physics is as usual,killing. its killing me inside and outside . Cannot go betul dgn fizik ni. huhhhh

     About friends kat sini pulakkkkk, Alhamdullilah i have found one girl that match with my soul. Her name is Ika.Hahaha,This girl is seriously crazy she make me laugh  all the time.I think its because of her being with me here, Im okay. She help me a lot in a lot of way. She's fun,she's honest,she's kind. Okay this is all about her.Nanti dia baca kembang punggung tak muat masuk bilik pulak nanti.kahkah! okbye.
About other friends pulak,ofcourse ramai lah yang baik,and ramai jugak yg selfish.But yeah,i just dont have enough time to give a damn.As long as im fine , as long as they do not disturb me,im fine.

      Housemates pula,they are all fine.Alhamdullilah.Its just that ,maybe la kan,few of them that just dont go well with me.But thats not a big deal lah.They are still okay and me too are okay.hahah. They are also very fun to be with sometime. Yeah thats all i think.hahah

 If im about to update about every single thing maybe i will not sleep lah tonight kan sbb have to sit here in anjung .(Wifi in uitm ns here is seriously one piece of bullshit,susah gila nak dapat connection) . So yeah i think thats all for now,i will try to make time to update this blog in the future.

 I hope i will be fine all the time im doing this diploma insyaAllah. I hope i will achieve what i want. May all the challenges that come in my way make me stronger,InsyaAllah.InsyaAllah.

p/s: its been almost 3 weeks tak balik rumah.Im missing ayah mama kakak n adik so bad i wann go home :(

The questions in life.

  Will I still be alive the next 10 years?
  And if I do what will I be doing?
  Would I already build a family?

 What do I do for living?
 Is it something I like doing?
Or is it something I never expected to do?

Will my family and friends still be with me?
Will all of them stay healthy by that time?
Or will there be any one of them who will leave me?

I hope,one day when I read all of the questions again,I will be able to answer them with a happy heart . And with answers I would like it to be. Somehow this make me scared.Scared of the time that passes too fast leaving everything behind.

From 18 years old Syairah to 28 years old Syairah. =) 
 

#3 Sabah

17.February.2014

Our second day @ Mabul. Since morning the weather was good so we get to go snorkelling at few places. One of the places that we went was around Mabul. I forgot its name. haha. This is also the highlight of the holiday because i get to snorkel between shallow sea and deep sea. Usually from above you get to see the difference in the color . Deep sea hv a very dark blue colour while shallow sea(which is also actually deep but you can still see the sea bed.) hv light blue/turqoise color.

 

The difference in colour . Taken from the peak of Bohey Dulang.

Whats nice about it is , its very beautiful. When you swim around the shallow water,the deep sea looks extremely scary because its dark,you cant see the sea bed and the water is cooler. Theres like a wall divided them two.At this side its really beautiful but just next to you its scary.haha. Its also where turtle usually swims.haha.

After snorkel for few hours we went back to the chalet hv lunch and lepak lepak. haha.Petang tu,pergi jalan jalan sekitar kampung lagi. Malam, pergi dinner rumah Hj Yusoff Ketua Kampung Mabul! Awesome gila! 

                                                                       lauk pauk

the next day,our last day.
9.00 a.m. bertolak ke Semporna,terus ke Tawau. Jalan jalan sekitar Tawau beli barang sikit,lepak kat airport jap,dan balik! ahaks bye.

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#2 Sabah (Pulau Mabul)

16th february 2014.

On our third day we went to Pulau Mabul which is 1 hour away from Semporna(by boat).

                                                                     Pulau Mabul

It was raining that day,so theres nothing much we could do other than just stay in the room or lepak around the chalet or listen to the anak baju laut asking for money and food.haha.

In the evening,we went for a stroll around the village. Its undeniable that Mabul is very beautiful,but the biggest problem is about rubbish.Theres rubbish everywhere. Something should be done before its too late. Houses there is also just a simple rumah kayu. And another thing about Mabul is,theres kid everywhere. Everywhere you walk,theres kid playing.On average,each family have about 7-8 kids. Amazing!! haha. Here's some pictures!

                                                                       our chalet

                                                             rumah warga mabul

And to end the day, adik,ayah and i went for swimming,jussssst below our chalet.haha. Nah,gambar lagi.

                                                               

 

Waktu petang,air tengah pasah jadi bolehlah berenang. Tak dalam pun lebih kurang 3 meter je.Siapa tak reti berenang,memang tenggelam la.haha. Since mama dengan kakak tak reti berenang,jd mereka hanya jadi penonton sahaja.  Ok bye bye , till next post.ahaks!